Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Life is.....


I’ve been breathing and still breathing for 25 long years..
During the past few days, I suddenly asked myself..Am I happy? The answer is.. I really don’t know.
I’ve been up to thinking a lot of things and that makes me feel frustrated, disappointed and depressed eventually. In short, I am not happy with my life now.. Though I still have to be thankful for all the blessings I received in my entire life but my life now is totally different..Really different. ..
I may appear happy, bubbly but deep inside my heart is bleeding..
I have to be strong for my family. Yes, only for my family.
My family is the only one I trusted most in my entire life. Without them I don’t think I can live in this miserable life.( And of course with God) ^^. Lots of things happen in our lives. Sometimes people whom we trusted are the ones who betrayed us. Life is like that.full of challenges and full of surprises.Sad to say that my family is always a victim of betrayal..Always~~ A relative, close friend, and even family member.. Yes. We consider that person as a family yet that person betrayed us.
Sometimes, I asked myself..Is my life normal? If not, what’s considering normal? Is this just a challenge to us? But why it’s always like this.. I’m busy thinking if where did we go wrong.. Hindi naman kami nag.agrabyado ng tao.Kung tutuusin kami pa nga ang na agrabyado.. Maybe the problem is my parents are kind.TOO KIND.. Kasalanan ba ito? Sometimes, too kind or too good is NOT really good at all.
That’s why I came up and made a lot of realizations in life and these are through my bad experience..
1. Ang tao ( hindi namn lahat) kung may kelangan sayo tsaka lang sila lalapit. Pero kung ikaw naman ang nangangailangan, biglang nawawala na lang na parang bula. Salamat ha.. tugshh.
2. Kung sobrang bait mo naman, aabusuhin ka. Kaya natuto na akong magpakamanhid minsan.
3. Pera.. pera.pera…. yun lang ang kelangan nila at habol nila sayo.Why I said so? I have the right to say this coz it was based on my experience.. My family has been betrayed not only once, twice but many times because of money.PAKAININ KAYA KITA NG PERA. Sobrang bait naman kc nila eh.Sobrang tiwala..Yun..tama..TIWALA.. mahairap na magtiwala sa panahong ito...
4. people change.. good or bad.
5. Promises are made to be broken.. Wala pang tao na nangako sa akin at tinupad nya ito..Sa ngayon, wala pa……Ewan ko kung meron na bukas..Kaya if you can't keep promises , wag kang magpaasa ng tao kawawa naman yung umaasa.. I really hate that.
6. Kelangan kong maging matatag sa lahat ng bagay..lahat ng nangyayari at mangyayari pa.
7. Wala ng ibang masasandalan pa,kundi ang PAMILYA mo lang.. Kaya. Love your family more than yourself I repeat..LOVE YOUR FAMILY^^and God. Wala ng sasalo pa sayo sa oras ng kagipian mo kundi SILA lng. ^^
8. Kung mayaman ka, sikat ka..eh pano na kagaya naming mahihirap??? Ignore nalng ba kmi? Hala.!!! Stop being STREOTYPE!!!!
9. Mas mabuti ang plano ng DIOS kaysa sa plano mo. Kaya wag mong piltin ang hindi para sayo.
10. Tiwala sa Dios.. Only God knows everything..What will happen in the future..
All these things made me strong even a lot stronger... I hold on to my faith and I trust and love you Lord. ^^
I know that everything happens has a reason..I keep on praying, wishing and hoping that all my unanswered prayers will be answered in HIS right time....

So, what's life for you?......

2 comments:

언니-Unni said...

bwahahaha i love it moi~~~ana jd day hehehee,,
lagot noh pero may nlng buhi pa ta ron hehee,,

Deasy said...

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I Believe all ur prayers will come true someday! There can be miracles..when u believe!