How did you know if he is the one?

Good eve everyone ^_^ Something just appeared on my mind. I remembered someone asked me before, "How did you know that the person who are with is the one?" Hmm. Simple question with a very difficult answer.I didn't gave her an answer that time I haven't found yet the person who will make me happy. I want to get back to her and tell her my answer. Well, ganito lang yun, based on my experience hahaha, For me, Love is like you're travelling.. You discover something that would make you become a better person, sometimes you've thought that he is the one. But in the end you've realized that he is not meant for you.. Minsan kala mo cya na pero dumaan lang pala cya sa buhay mo para turuan ka papano at ano ang pakiramdam ng may nagmamahal at may minamahal. :-)
As I look back on my past I can define love is like you are traveling in a road as what I've mentioned earlier, you will know na cya na if walang lubak, dire-diretso, in short smooth sailing ang byahe..Walang sabit, walang kumukontra, wla kang nasasaktan, yung masaya ka at masaya din ang taong nasa paligid mo. Ganun kasimple pro mahirap hanapin. Pansin ko kung lalo mong hinahanap ang love lalo mo cyang d nkikita.Kusa lang yan darating sa buhay mo. ;) In a right time and in a right place.. Don;t find love, let love find you.. Charoooot..

It's nice to be inlove. ^_________^
Happy weekend everyone~

Hello December ^______^

Taken last night at the Incheon International Airport. going home?? hmmm.kkkk~ how I wish hahaha

Christmas is fast approaching.. I believe everyone is done decorating with their Christmas Trees~~ I miss decorating our Christmas tree. I remembered last time I spent my Christmas together with my family in Phil. I don't know if I'll be happy or sad coz this is my first Christmas away from them :-( But I'm being positive coz even if I'm away from them I can still smile on that day ^____^ It's my first White Christmas here in Korea with my better half. What I'm excited about is to see snow~~ kkkkk~~ I can't wait for that day to play snowballs and make snowman hahahaha. parang bata lng. hehehehe..
Anyhow, weather is so good today~ I can see Mr.Sunshine smilling at me..
DOne washing with my bedsheets~ hahaha..
Have a nice day everyone ~

Life is.....

I’ve been breathing and still breathing for 25 long years..
During the past few days, I suddenly asked myself..Am I happy? The answer is.. I really don’t know.
I’ve been up to thinking a lot of things and that makes me feel frustrated, disappointed and depressed eventually. In short, I am not happy with my life now.. Though I still have to be thankful for all the blessings I received in my entire life but my life now is totally different..Really different. ..
I may appear happy, bubbly but deep inside my heart is bleeding..
I have to be strong for my family. Yes, only for my family.
My family is the only one I trusted most in my entire life. Without them I don’t think I can live in this miserable life.( And of course with God) ^^. Lots of things happen in our lives. Sometimes people whom we trusted are the ones who betrayed us. Life is like that.full of challenges and full of surprises.Sad to say that my family is always a victim of betrayal..Always~~ A relative, close friend, and even family member.. Yes. We consider that person as a family yet that person betrayed us.
Sometimes, I asked myself..Is my life normal? If not, what’s considering normal? Is this just a challenge to us? But why it’s always like this.. I’m busy thinking if where did we go wrong.. Hindi naman kami nag.agrabyado ng tao.Kung tutuusin kami pa nga ang na agrabyado.. Maybe the problem is my parents are kind.TOO KIND.. Kasalanan ba ito? Sometimes, too kind or too good is NOT really good at all.
That’s why I came up and made a lot of realizations in life and these are through my bad experience..
1. Ang tao ( hindi namn lahat) kung may kelangan sayo tsaka lang sila lalapit. Pero kung ikaw naman ang nangangailangan, biglang nawawala na lang na parang bula. Salamat ha.. tugshh.
2. Kung sobrang bait mo naman, aabusuhin ka. Kaya natuto na akong magpakamanhid minsan.
3. Pera.. pera.pera…. yun lang ang kelangan nila at habol nila sayo.Why I said so? I have the right to say this coz it was based on my experience.. My family has been betrayed not only once, twice but many times because of money.PAKAININ KAYA KITA NG PERA. Sobrang bait naman kc nila eh.Sobrang tiwala..Yun..tama..TIWALA.. mahairap na magtiwala sa panahong ito...
4. people change.. good or bad.
5. Promises are made to be broken.. Wala pang tao na nangako sa akin at tinupad nya ito..Sa ngayon, wala pa……Ewan ko kung meron na bukas..Kaya if you can't keep promises , wag kang magpaasa ng tao kawawa naman yung umaasa.. I really hate that.
6. Kelangan kong maging matatag sa lahat ng bagay..lahat ng nangyayari at mangyayari pa.
7. Wala ng ibang masasandalan pa,kundi ang PAMILYA mo lang.. Kaya. Love your family more than yourself I repeat..LOVE YOUR FAMILY^^and God. Wala ng sasalo pa sayo sa oras ng kagipian mo kundi SILA lng. ^^
8. Kung mayaman ka, sikat ka..eh pano na kagaya naming mahihirap??? Ignore nalng ba kmi? Hala.!!! Stop being STREOTYPE!!!!
9. Mas mabuti ang plano ng DIOS kaysa sa plano mo. Kaya wag mong piltin ang hindi para sayo.
10. Tiwala sa Dios.. Only God knows everything..What will happen in the future..
All these things made me strong even a lot stronger... I hold on to my faith and I trust and love you Lord. ^^
I know that everything happens has a reason..I keep on praying, wishing and hoping that all my unanswered prayers will be answered in HIS right time....

So, what's life for you?......

Nagpapaalam

Matagal na tayong huling nagkita.
Ni sa panaginip di ka na nagpakita.
Sadya bang ganito ang ating tadhana
Na lagi ka na lang nawawala.

Araw-araw gabi-gabi
Pangarap ko’y ika’y nasa tabi.
Pag-ibig nga ba nag nadarama?
Tila bang ako’y nasa tama.

Sabik na sabik na kitang makita
Wag na wag ka na sanang mawawala.
Pro di na ako aasa
Na tayo’y magkikta pa.

Hanggang dito na nga lang ba
Anga ting pagsasama.
Tila yata di ko na kaya
Mas maigi pang tayo’y di magkasama.

And this is Our Love Story ♥♥♥

“Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning.”

I never thought that love comes in my life..I remember when I was young and I always think when and where can I find my Prince Charming? I searched for love unfortunately the more I searched for it, the more I feel disappointed. :(
Until one day, my prince charming came along in a very mysterious way.Love is indeed mysterious^^ .
Have you ever wondered where and when I met my Jagiya?kk~~
Everytime I recall the day we first met I can see myself smiling ^____^
Kakakilig..hehehe..Ako lang ang kinikilig..haha
He is a Korean.. Like what I've said before that if ever I have to get married, I want to have a Korean Husband,, ^^
It's also because of my Korean friends who are so nice and sweet with me..They are my inspiration ^^ To all my oppa, thank you sooooo much ^^ I will not name you all.. I know who you are.. ^^
I told myself that if ever I have to get married, I will marry a Korean ~~
My wish came true..And I found my guy :)
He is 38 years old, but he really looks younger than his age ^^
I met him it's all because of my sister..

Here's the beginning of our love story ~~

My sister is working with a Korean company and her boss is a Korean ^^
Yes, you heard it right.Her boss is a woman. ^^
One day, her boss asked my sister if she knew someone who is not yet married and she liked to introduce a Korean guy. At first her boss didn't mention that the guy she wanted to introduce is her brother in law. Sabi lang ng amo ng ate ko na she knows someone who wants to marry a Filipina..
My sister keeps thinking who is the girl she will introduce to her boss.. hmmm..Actually my sis was thinking that it's me whom she will introduce to her boss.But Im still a student that time so my sis ignored it.. Im so young pa daw..

Few months passed by, my sis' boss keep on asking about the girl because the guy really wants to have a girlfriend and wants to get married also. ^^
So, my sis thought about me again..Total graduate na ako that time, so she tried to tell her boss about me..But before that my sis asked permission first to me if Im interested.

When my sis and I were chatting .. ( I was in Bacolod that time having a Christmas vacation), she told me about it.. I told her AKO NALANG te, hehehe.. jowk. . Then my sis said, Oh.. sure ka? Sabi ko naman , sige try..haahahaha.. ano ito, parang nang aaply lang ng job?..hehehe..

So, my sis finally told her boss that she has a sister(and that's me ) .Her boss was so happy (Happy ka ba talaga boss?hahaha...because she really likes my sister..Sabi pa nga ng boss nya , if my sis is not married pwede cya na lang..hehehe..
Her boss asked for my pic and my sis sent her my pic.Her boss told my sis that her brother in law really wants to get married to a Filipina.. hmmm..why kaya?
After sending my pic to her boss... Her boss told my sis that I am ..I am Beautiful..hahaha..alangan edited ang pics..Thanks sa photoscape..hehehe..
The guy sent me email almost everyday and he keeps on telling me that he is so happy that I sent him my picture. ^^

So, after my vacation in Bacolod, we went home to my place and days after we chatted.. ^^
I was so starstruck .. at akoý nashock talaga..as in over over sa pagkashock..hahaha.. Ang gwapo nya!... hehehe..Yung pinadala nila na pic sa akin ibang-iba sa cam.. He is a bit chubby in the pic though I can tell that in his pic that he's really handsome.. but when I saw him on webcam..wow~~ he is really handsome..He doesn't look like a Korean.He looks like more of a Japanese ^^ My sis boss told me that they told the guy to lose his weight.So the guy was very inspired to lose his weight.Everynight jogging ang guy..hehehe.. Inspired ata ,,hmm.

I did enjoy our first chatting eventhough he can only speak little English but I can say he's trying his best to learn the language..

My love life is never been perfect before the day I met him ~~^^

Days ,months after he told me that he really wants to marry me..~~
I was so shocked but I didn't believe it.. I told myself.Halaka paano na mga oppa ko?haha. Actually, madami akong kakilalang koreano pero sa 3 years naming kachatmate ni isa sa kanila wala talagang nagsabi sa akin na Sarang hae.... .. They are all good but ito talaga ang bumihag ng aking puso..hehehehe.. Si Jagiya ~~ ^^

We decided to get married last year 2009 but due to some circumstances it was postponed.. :(

Honestly, everytime I can't see his face, I miss him a lot.Siya yung oppa ko na nakakamiss pag di nagpaparamdam ng ilang araw o buwan.. Kahit di cya masyadong marunong mag english, masaya ako kapag kausap ko siya :)

I can tell that he is the right guy for me ^^
Everytime we talk he didn't forget to tell me how much he loves me ^^ (♥_♥)
Sa kanya ko lang nakita ang sincerity at masasabi ko na masayang masaya talaga ako sa kanya. ^^ I can feel it that he really loves me more than I love him ^^
He really makes me feel happy and everytime I think of him I can say He's really the one..
I thank God because I found him. Im very lucky that God allow me to meet him in my life. ^^
I hope our wedding will not be postponed again this year., fingers crossed...
I really want to be with him forever~~
I hope and pray that he's the answer of all my prayers .. :)

Jagiya young won hee sarang haeyo ♥♥♥
I'm so inlove with you ^^

My True to life Love Story -- Koreanovela ~~ ^^ ♥♥♥

I like to travel into my imagination and discover new things..
While I was traveling, I discover LOVE ~~ ♥♥♥
And this thing happens to reality.......It turns to reality....
I remember when I had my first boyfriend.I was so inlove with him.
Before we knew each other,I secretly admired him . ^^
I didn't expect that he became my boyfriend....My first love ^_^ He is 5 years older than me.
I was 17 then.young,pretty and innocent...hahaha....:p
Kidding aside,He was my first boyfriend.^^
My love for him was so warm.I even write him letter.. rather letters a day?hahaha.. tinimbakan ko cya ng mga sulat.He really likes to receive letters sabi nya,so I sent him letters almost everyday..haha..adik!!
Just to tell him a lot of stories happen in my day to day life.Frustrated writer kasi ako eh, so parang cya ang nabalingan ko ng sama ng loob.hehehe.jowk..
Sometimes, I'm the one calling him just to check if he's fine.( o,diba,di lang ako writer, parang stalker pa dating ko hahaha).Pero di ako obsessive sa kanya ha..Hindi talaga.. promise..hehehe..
That's how I really loved him.I enjoyed his company.Everytime when we were together I can see my self smiling.)opps,di ako baliw ha?, inlove lang ako nung time na yun :))
When I'm with him my days were so special ^^
Pero sa kabila ng aking kaligayahan.May mga tao na pala akong nasasaktan :(
I experienced arguments with my sister because of him. My family didn't like our relationship.
They want us to remain friends and not lovers.I don't know why they don't like him.. But it's so difficult to me to let him go.I accept all his difficulties because I love him.
Until one day, my fear of letting him go happened. We broke up.I really miss when we're together .But then later on, I realized that we're not meant for each other.He's the one who didn't fight our love.Then I discovered that he didn't loved me anymore. :(
He lied at me.I thought he really loved me but it's all a lie.My days were so dark but I said to myself that "There's GOD" I hope and pray that my feelings for him will be gone soon. That's life.We learned to experience things happened in our lives.We must face the reality. But despite of what happened it made me become a strong and better person and even wiser when in comes in making decisions.So I thank God He introduced me to him. :)
DAYS,MONTHS,YEARS passed by, I was afraid to love again.I lost my trust to any guys..
I focused myself into my studies and I tried to find myself again.
After all what happened , I looked for love... I did had found my 2nd-10 months,my 3rd-3 months , 4th boyfriend -8 months... ýet still even if I love them, I can say that I'm not totally happy with them.. I still feel empty.. I told myself when will be my right guy come? Sometimes I feel guilty because I hurt their feelings. Madali akong magsawa.... Sometimes I'm so inlove with them, after how many months or even days wala na agad akong nararamdaman sa kanila.. :( Sad but this is really what I felt for them..So, I ended our relationships coz I don't want to be unfair to them and to myself.I know that they really love me..so much ~~ ....But then, I decided being single.

Until one day, I discovered skype...I met some Korean guys there and they became my friends.I can compare Korean guys to Filipino guys.Honestly, at first I don't like Koreans..Naremember ko kasi noon na there are lots of rumors about Koreans..kasi gnito daw,ganun.blah blah blah...Until, one of my Korean friends visited me here in my place after his military duty.He also attended my graduation.I was so happy that time.. I told myself that I really want to marry a Korean someday. ^^ But hindi naging kami nun.Friends lang talaga ang tingin namin sa isa't isa..I mean.. Siya lang..hahaha.. Oo inaamin ko na gusto ko cya pero hindi kami click sa isa't isa.Alam nyo ba yung Chemistry? Yup.Wala kaming Chemistry..as in.wala talaga.Physics lang.bwahaha.. . But still I'm so happy I met him before he went to Australia that time...Masasabi ko naman na mabuting tao cya at very romantic.. Yun ang nagustuhan ko sa mga Koreano.. Very Romantic..I thought cya na pro before he went back to Korea he told me that he's not the right guy for me.. ^^ Ouch! Bat nya kaya nasabi yun? I never told him about what I feel about him....Magaling yata akong magtago nga aking nararamdaman hehehe ^^ but I accept the fact na di talaga pwedeng maging kami..But Until now,it remains a mystery for me why he said that.. Does he like me? Or not? Sometimes he even calls me kahit nung nasa Australia na cya... haist.. Pero di na ako aasa pa.. Nakamove on na ako sa kanya.. ^^ tapos..

Another Korean guy na naman na namet ko. When we were having a vacation in Bacolod.One of my Korean chatmates told me that he will go to Bacolod also to study English there. Wow~~ Great Chance , dba?Happy na naman ako kasi makikita ko na naman ang pinakauna kong nakachat na Korean.. yes, he is my first Korean oppa nachatmate^_^
I remembered the day when we first metin person..SM Bacolod pa kami nagkita nun.Harap ng Watson bandang alas singko ng hapon hehehe..Parang magkakilala na talaga kami.Di kami ilang sa isa't isa..^^ I'm so happy when I am with him........ He is also romantic kagaya nung unang nameet ko na Koreano.They really served you when you eat and they will carry your bag..so sweet. ^^One of the most unforgettable moments when we're together was the time went to Mambukal.. I did enjoy my vacation in Bacolod because of him.. Pero kagaya ng dati, friends din kami.. Haizt.. Pero hindi nya ako sinabihan ng Im not the right guy. hehehe.. Nagpaparamdam lang cya..Koreans tend to hide what they really feel.. I have friends who knows Korean.She told me na ganyan talaga ugali nila.You don't have a clue kung kayo na ba or what? MU lang ba or couple na kayo?.. But you can feel that they really care for you and sometimes they feel jealous also... So, I told myself na I will no longer entertain Koreans anymore. (talaga?) hmm.tingnan natin..

Sakit lang sa puso bigay nila sa akin. At sabi ko din sa sarili ko yaw ko ng umasa sa kanila.. but even if they are like that I really miss them. And that's the saddest part..I can't even hate them even if they hurt me.. But we remain friends of course and they still don't know that I once like them ^^ Umiba ang takbo ng buhay ko after I met Koreans.. Malaki ang naging impact nila sa pagkatao ko.I don't know.Because of what happened I still want to marry a Korean. Iba talaga sila.
Sigh.. oppps, Not yet done.. Kala nyo cya ng huling Koreano na nameet ko.hahahaha.. Di pa..May isa pa.. I met this guy few years ago in skype. He is in Australia that time.I thought he is an Australian but I found out na Korean din pala cya..Naku po! Korean na naman.. Destiny ko bang mga Koreano? hahaha.That time, ayoko na talaga ng mga Koreano kasi baka masaktan na naman ako.. :( During those times, he is planning to go to Manila and study there. So chat kami minsan,, Until he went to Phil.But we didn't met that time coz he stayed in Manila.. far from my place... Sometimes he texted me.. Until such time we lost communication for about 2 years. Nung minsan nagonline ako sa skype, he chatted me.After 2 long years of no communication, we met in Skype again. He asked me if I still remember him and I said of course....That time he is working in Manila for almost 2 years na din pala.Ang bilis ng panahon I remember I'm still a student when I first met him in skype... He told me he has a girlfriend na.Filipina gf.So, I said to him I was so happy about that.But he said that his girlfriend no longer contacted him for how many months. Her girlfriend's father died so she went home to her province.So, I explained to him na baka wala lang signal dun.kasi nasa kabukiran talaga ang lugar na yun.. ..What I remember the girl lives somewhere in North Luzon.

After our discussion about his gf.He asked me something about my place.He told me that he really wanted to come to my place and met me..I was so excited to see him because he is also my long time chatmate. I'm so curious what he looks like....After 2 weeks of continuous chatting during that time, he decided to meet me on weekends.. After his work..Friday night was his flight.. I picked him up at the airport together with my sis.. We ate dinner in the restaurant and he stayed in our house.. He only stayed 2 nights and 2 days.Sunday night he returned to Manila because he has to work on Monday.. He can't be absent in his work. I enjoy being with him. hahaha..enjoy nga naman ksama mga Koreano..Kain dito,gimik doon, beach and presents..hehe....
He is really good in English,wow..nosebleed parts.. hahaha.. He has a good accent.. ^^ Of course, because he is an English Instructor in Korea. ^^ ayeeeeeiiii..
Everything went well.. He bought me some presents before he came back to Manila.. I suddenly felt something.Pakiramdam ko gusto ko na cya.halaka .hahahhaa.. .Pro mali eh, kasi he has a gf..... I remembered one time I asked him..Oppa, when is the most memorable day in your life? He answered .You know what ...lots of bad things happened in my life,Cha..But I can say this is the most memorable day in my life..charrrrr~~ but I can feel the sincerity naman..Kilig din daw ako ng konti.Konti lng.. hahaha...pro di ako nagpahalata ha?patay tayo dyan.heheehe.
Una ko palang cyang nakita I can see in his eyes na may dala-dala cyang burden sa kalooban nya.. I can feel that when we were together that's the time I can see him smiling. I was so happy when I saw him smiling.Sometimes I teased him just to see his smile :).. At ito na naman ang pinakahate ko..Sunday night..Time for him to say goodbye.Uuwi na cya sa Manila.T.T. We fetched him in the airport. .. He told me that he was so happy that he met me and so did I... Monday morning he texted me.. He told me that his gf finally arrived from her province.. He told her gf that he went to my place to meet me.. Her gf was so jealous that time. So, I decided not to ruin their relationship.But he is the one texting me and chatting me.. He told me that he likes me more than I like him..hmm. aba! isip ko bat naman nya nsabi yun na like ko cya? hahaaha.. aigoooo. ... kala nya talaga gusto ko cya.. pro ung totoo nagustuhan ko naman din cya...hehehe.Denial stage lang ako nung time na yun... I didn't reply in his text messages.He even told me that he will come back when everything is OK.. Ang totoo gusto na nyang hiwalayan gf nya kaso I still don't know why he is still with her if he is always telling me that he likes me.Ang dami daw nilang naging problema but he is still confused he didn't know what to do and how to do.. He even told me that he didn't know what love really is.He will go and find it.And if he find it he will come back to me.naks..ano to..Korean Drama? hahaaha
So I made a decision not to contact him anymore.I told him that don't bother my life and don't even text me or chat me anymore.Please delete me in your contacts.I told him..
It really hurts me so much because I know that we like each other but there's a big wall that hinders the two of us.It made me think that we are really not meant to each other. I am not so lucky when in terms of relationship, I conclude to myself. So, I decided to give up.I focus on myself now because I think life is so unfair to me.. I searched and looked for love for a long time but I still failed.Sometimes I don't know what is love.How it feels like....

Until one day, God answered my prayers.I met a person that truly touches my heart ♥♥♥
I thought that it was just a fling but Im wrong.. I fell in love to him UNEXPECTEDLY ^^
This occurs to me that God sent him to me.. ^^
I thought that I discover love already in my first boyfriend but it was just a puppy love ^^
I didn't expect that LOVE rather TRUE LOVE comes in my way mysteriously^^
That's why Im so happy to be with God and I thank HIM that God gave him to me ^^
I found my true happiness that was lost long time ago ^^
Now that we're getting married i hope that our love will be always and forever ~~ ^^
I love you My Yeoboya ~~ ^^



I have lots of realizations in my life after things happened..
I realized that we don't need to find love kusa na lang itong lalapit sa atin sa takdang panahon sabi pa ni Big brother.hehe..
I also realized that sometimes we need to be hurt in order to value what love really is.
Love is sacrifice..It's not always happy ending sometimes we need to learn to love our self first and if we are ready to love again we give the best in everything.
Learning to let go,move on and respect to ourselves are some of my realizations in life.
I hope this can be an inspiration to all of us reading my posts.
Whether you are broken hearted, inlove or still searching for love. Let us not forget to say Thank you to our God because everything happens for a reason^^



guys, i'll be posting my blog about my man soon ~~
weeeh.
Love .love.love ~~